Expect NOTHING…then ANYTHING will start to mean EVERYTHING…….
I’m gonna crash for the nite…..for those who didn’t picked their nose…and read my trash with no expectation…way to go…you’ll find happiness in every nook…;-)
don't u have anything else to do??...NO??.HI FI.....ok go ahead.. ...my research on wasting time popped with a new technique of dumping my foolish, imprudent,obviously ridiculous,thoughtless...thoughts...into this trashbin for thoughts..and the rest few..with the same wavelength and sheer interest of wasting time could do their noble deed by reading these literary wastes..and (if still left with time to waste),could post some comments on them....
Dear,
I’m not even sure, this letter would ever reach you…Since you are reading it…I’m happy I got a word with you…Please don’t let Dan read this now…He may not take it well…Give it to him, when time is right…
There’s only less than hundred men left in my infantry...We are loosing it.
I just want to apologize…I’m sorry for leaving you, with the baby coming and all…but I’ve my orders, sweet...And I hope, I get to see her…I’m sure she’s having your beautiful blue eyes…If I didn’t get the chance, tell her, I loved her…I miss everything about her…I miss her sweet baby smell, I miss her soft nudge and tight grip of her little fingers.. I miss her giggles, for my magic tricks, that I could never surprise her with…I miss her first walk…first day at school…I miss…
I f she ever misses me… asks for me…just ask her, to look at the sky at night…I’ll be there…winking right at her…don’t forget to smile back dear…
And Dan, I’m a proud father son…You have a good heart and a brave soul…take care of your mom and sister son...I love you…
Tonight, after you cover him up under his blanket…just kiss him for me, dear...
I’m writing this from my muddy trench. Don’t tell mom this, she would start shouting for not cleaning up my place now…Give her my hugs…And tell her, that I did steal her necklace during high school. It’s in my small chest, at the attic...
And dad, I just realized, how much I love you…I’ve always respected you…I never knew how to show it dad…Sorry for being so mulish and for joining the marine against your wish…I would make you proud one day dad…I promise…
And, honey, I’m sorry I couldn’t make it…and for leaving you alone…I will miss all those waltz we played in the rain…I’ll miss your yellow skirts you wear all the time…
I’ll miss your beautiful smile
I’m sorry...I’m on my last matchstick and it’s raining heavy…I’ll complete this letter soon…miss you…
I will…
It was an after rain….the rustic grandpa trees…swampy grass…birds hugging each other…enjoying the romance, the nature gifted them..…hiding from drizzling cold shower in their partner's wings…enjoying the first drops….in that hot summer eve….
She could almost hear the tiny chirps of her eggs…..it was about to hatch…The rain made a nice soft bed of her nest.The eggs hatched…It’s a chubby boy and a cute girl…a rain drop, fell on their tiny heads, from the leaf above…giving a quick shower to our twins…She gave both of her pebbles a tight warm hug…Then flew off to fetch some snacks for their brand new, tiny hungry tummies…..
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The Bubble Elementary School, not that far from the rain forest….The kids there could almost hear the chirping cries of the new twins in the woods…It seems the rain couldn’t reach the school…it’s still so hot…and silent.
Silence, is not the kind of adjective that should ever be used with School…It’s scary….
Could see masked men...two masks,running along the school corridors…These corridors are supposed to be echoing with laughs and sounds of running footsteps of small sneakers at this time…but now, it was empty except for a shoe left out alone, without its pair, few dots of red here and there…A five year old leg, was left hanging out of the bathroom door….Still…Dead…..
It was the III grade class room….There were four hearts beating really fast in that closed walls…That of the two masked men, wounded and two kids…twins…hostages….
She, their mother was standing outside the class room door, with few of the staffs and a few policemen….helpless.
Sweat…blood…tear, she was all washed out with these….She shouted…requesting for her sons.She pressed hard against the class room walls…but there wasn’t any answer…
After some time,what seemed like hours…they heard gun firing from the room…she went crying, running into the room….The door slammed closed behind her…and she was pushed to the to the floor from behind…She turned back to see her sons, all tied up but, alive…She got up from the floor, to reach them, but was hit back on to the floor by one of the masked man….
She noticed other one was lying on the other corner of the room, in a blood pool…dead…The masked man started firing out of the window, to the direction of forest…shrieking in agony…frustrated…and he took away the masking turban….
Long hair jumped out onto his scarred face….It was… a Woman…
She looked back at the mother….her eyes…blood red…raging in anger…She walked slowly towards the blood pool…Unmasked the other...it was a man…and gave a kiss on his forehead…and closed his dead eyes….
She then pointed the gun straight at the mother’s face and started saying something….She was trying to speak in english...
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One of her hot bullets hit on the barks of the dried up trees on the hill side….a spark…and a fire…a wild wire was broke open…left loose…
The hungry fire devoured half the area in a few seconds…The sound of the gun shot and sudden deadly warmth called the mother bird back to her twins…..Her eyes was all yellow and orange…the reflection of the wildfire that almost neared her first hatchlings…She hugged the crying twins tight...into her tiny wings….The fire has now started tasting her tree…her home…Her heart was cracking along with the creaking sound of the trunk breaking into halves….She clutched the wingless twins, one in each of her claws….She dropped them many times back into the nest….Finally, she got a vague grip and flew off, from her falling home… into the half eaten…burning forest…all yellow in fire…all around….
With all the smoke she couldn’t see anything….She continued flying…struggling hard to stay in air…grip slipping at every turn….The twins were getting heavy in her clutches…She couldn’t hold both of them in a tight grip…her claws started slipping…but there wasn’t any tree left were she could place one of them for a while….she was flying over sea of fire that’s reaching out it’s claws to catch her twins…
It’s too hard for her to hold both of ‘em and fly to safety….
It’s done…it’s over…….she need to take a dirty choice now….
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The lady pointed the gun at the twins…Mother cried for mercy…The lady seemed to be enjoying every drop of her useless weeps…She removed her overcoat…and revealed that she was all wired up…
After a long gap of silence…..the lady pushed the boys a bit closer to their crying mother…She wiped off her tears and came near her sons to pick them up…The lady with gun sensed her motion stood up in a swift motion and pointed the gun back at the tied up kids...
Their mother stood dead still….
The lady spoke….”pick….one…….”
She couldn’t believe her ears…
Mother asked “WHAT???...”
“Pick…..Choose one….” And then she showed the timer….00:00:59
“1 min….pick one and go….out….”
00:00:50
She looked in the blue...watery…eyes of her 5 year old sons….
“I’ve to pick one among them…? My sons? My only sons???” the question echoed in the walls of her aching heart....
00:00:45
“No time……fast…choose one or leave...”
00:00:44
All the sweet memories…Their first smile….first walk….all those peek-a-boos…first day cry at school…All flashed back like it happened just yesterday and now, has to make a decision that would leave one half of these moments, just a memory that would be so painful to cherish……
00:00:43
“PICK…………”
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Fire was getting taller and higher…and she was almost down for a crash land….
Both of them were too heavy for her to fly high….She has to drop one of them...to save the other….But the very thought tore her heart apart….it was burning hot…hotter than the forest…But she has to……
She made up her mind to do it, at the next turn…She didn’t look back at the tiny cries at her claws….The next turn was just a second apart. She took the turn…closed tight her eyes…and opened up one of her claws…she didn’t even know which one….and with the less weight of her only DAUGHTER…she flew higher…and higher…out of the forest…out of the smoke…and out of the wretched fire that made her kill, her son..
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00:00:35
“NOW……”
00:00:33
“I…I can’t…..”
00:00:30
“NOWWW”
00:00:24
Mother stood up and ran towards the lady grabbed the nearest tiny hand …turned and gave a final helpless look at the other son…tied up at the gun point..
“RUN…RUN….”
She hugged tight to her son…and ran out through the fire exit…The policemen and the rest followed her ,out of the school…….
00:00:00
Hi, beautiful morning today…so warm…smells good too. Sorry, forgot to introduce me, I’m Jess, i’m 18….I love music…listens to all kind...all day….Solo instrumentals, especially cello, brings butterflies in my stomach….absolutely adore them…
Met a girl last weekend…feb 2nd…Rosaline...i went to the super market with my doggy boy Dan…...I fell for her instantly…quite literally…I tipped over the door step of the supermarket, and fell on her…She picked up her books or something. and held me by my arms and helped me up to get up…Her touch…so soft…so gentle..i could feel…hear…slow.. Für Elise echoing in the super market…She then came so close to my face…I could feel the warmth of her breath…She asked if I’m fine…voice...sweet as the bird that sings me to sleep every nite….far from my bedroom window….God must be a male…for sure.
We had a coffee together…and she kept on singing for me…..i was so melted in her voice…I don’t remember a word she said…don’t know if it was even English.. Usually I’m the one who never stops talking…
This one time….I was talking to a guy, Smith, at the mall…he was just listening to me…gave a “hmm” occasionally…anyway, I went on…After a while, Joe came to me and asked who am I talking to. Then I noticed Smith wasn’t there, he went far before…I was so embarrassed …then I heard this bunch of guys laughin at the nearby corner..It was Smith and his friends…I started laughing with them…Think of a guy sitting in the middle of a Mall and talking to himself….omg…I laughed all day…Funny guy Smith…Though Joe was a bit angry at him...but he calmed down fast…
Well, I’ll come back to Rosaline…She was still talking…and I enjoyed the music she’s conducting. Having no idea of the lyrics or which song even. Then she said something that brought me back to my self…”I’m leaving for Paris tomorrow” she said…I came to know that she lives there, with her friend…I smiled and kissed her hand...a good bye…
I came home….my night bird didn’t sing my lullaby that night or any night there after…busy in Paris I guess… ;)
Joe and I went for the sunset…we go there almost all evenings…I like the walk in the sand…bare foot…I like the warmth of the last few rays of the sun…it’s like the parting hands scene of an old Shakespeare play…a romantic. sad good bye to this side of earth… I like listening to children quarreling at each other for ruining their sand castles…Even, Eiffel wont be this sad and violent if his tower went down…I always join in the quarrel….and I would end up in a sand coffin these tiny evils bury me in...Joe has to drag me home every time, I don’t like leaving the beach….
Maa bought me sweater…for my b’day…a Black one…my favorite color…We had this party…I cut the cake, maa made….and gave the piece to maa…she gave me one and kissed…She had tears on her cheeks… she does that a lot....very silly…I wiped them off…and curved a wide smile on her lips…with my fingers…
There isn’t a day that I haven’t thanked the guy who dropped me into this world…the long rides with wind grazing my hair…the crisp summer air…smell of a rose…chattering rain…maa’s kiss…Joe’s pat…Dan’s sniff…children..the sunsets…Beethoven…cello…..
Man this is a beautiful world…..
Oh, I almost forgot to tell one more thing about me…I’m blind, I help in the blind school in my town…And girls, I’m not SEEing anyone now….single ;)
Luv ya all…..